Im so excited!!! I cant wait until spring break...only 23 more days....and Sam is coming now!! 
And while were there we get to meet up with kenzie and emily who will only be like an hour away....
yay
yesss i am excited.
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I got my car...its in my driveway....and I love it already. I havnt driven it yet because theres no plates on it right now....but yeah...its perfect...for me anyways..its not the best car ever...but i lovvve itt
Its a blazer. its black. its hottttt.
It only has 4 seats...but thats okay me and my friends never have enough room in any car we ride in.
I already put something pink in it....lol. I bought a hello kitty necklace and put it over the mirror...so now its officially mine...
Besides getting my car...the rest of my weekend was pretty good too. Kenzie and I skipped on friday....deffinetly needed that. it was awesome...we did absolutley nothing. Saturday was when I got my car...YAY....then I went to the mall with kenzie to see the hills have eyes....we bought our tickets...and the stupid whore at the top that takes your tickets wouldnt let us in...so we took our agression out on shopping. fun fun. and then we went to taco bell and it was freakin amazing as always lol. That night the girls all came up here...and we kinda ruined this "home and garden party" thing my mom was having....I didnt know half the people here but they hated me and all my friends by the end of the night.
haha it was a good time. ooooh and then we made a stunt group at 1 in the morning and made a bitchin routine with sam as the flyer 
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I'll probably have a billion pictures of my car soon so maybe ill put one up sometime....yeah...loser... I know.
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Im going to vent so if you dont want to read about my drama just stop reading.
I dont know what the hell it is im doing!Absolutley nothing that I do anymore has a reason, I feel like im just...there..like theres no point to anything whatsoever. Nothing that I say, do, or anthing has a reason. It's like theres this huge blank spot right in the middle of my life. I have my friends (thank god) my family, school, cheerleading, I have all of that but something is missing. Something big, I just feel so blank and empty sometimes. And for awhile now...I have turned into a bitch...and I hate it. I've NEVER EVER acted like this before...I changed and I really hate it. Idk if its because im trying to make up for whatever it is that im missing...I have no idea, but I really hate being the way that I've been lately...and im sorry to everybody that I've been acting that way towards...that isnt who I am. I really dont know what Im doing...everythings just so different.
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I can still see the light
at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind
But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem
to make the right decisions
I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say
I don't know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there he goes...
When will we sing
A new song
We’re still smilin as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why
Burry you deep so far
you can't see
If you're like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve
Pains are troubles
That you know so well
It can't or you just won't tell
I'm not the type to say
I told you so
I think the hardest part
of holding on is lettin it go
I don't know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think I know
there he goes...
I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go
And you can sing until
theres no song left
And I can scream until
the world goes deaf
For every other word
left unsaid you should
have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant
In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own
If joy really comes
in the morning time
then I'm gunna sit back
and wait until the
next sun rise
heyyyyy. This weekend was pretty much awesome...some parts of it were gay though. oh welll...what are ya gonna do?
Went to the game in ithaca on saturday with kenzie and a bunch of other people...hahah woowww, so much fun. Almost died about 3 times..lol. But it was worth it.Then me and Kenz went and hung out at aarons for a little while. Last night I went to dinner with wild. it was fun...we are the reason that waiters want to quit their job. So I spent the night at sams with them and had a good time Went to the mall today, I got a new belly button ring...its pretty hot.
yeah, so that was my weekend. I really dont wanna go back to school tomorrow...
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So this weekend so far has been alright, I havnt really done anything exciting though. Kenzie and Emily spent the night with me on thursday...but we just went to bed Last night I had work, whoa did that suck. Annnd this morning I had to go to the doctors...for the lump thats been in my back for past month thats been hurting me. And it turns out I have a lymphnode....??dont know if I spelled that right...anyways...They dont think its bad, but it could be...and if it is it means I have an infection somewhere in my body...so thats kinda scary...but im not too worried. lymphnode....who the hell came up with thatt.
Hopefully tonight I get to see wild! I miss them oh so very much. we havnt all been together in idk how long so that would be sweeeet.
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Today = worst day everrrrrr
ahhhh dfgryutybtuy b
you know those days? godddd they suck.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better...valentines day though....so I doubt it.
Good luck tomorrow night guys.
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She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label
She says she's ashamed
And she can take me for a while
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again
She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterfliess, reality escapes her
She says that love is for fools that fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away....
Guess I'll let it go
Fuel : Shimmer
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Yeahhh hiii.
Its been awhile so I figured I'd update. This weeks going by crazy fast, but thats a good thing. Im finally done with all the u.s history homework I had to do, thank godddd. Soo tonight im just sitting here, being cool, yeah. I dont know what to say...OOOOH YEAHH! Our basketball team is now undefeated...so awesome Everybody should really come to cortland on tuesday to support them!
haha...after living in this house for 8 years, we're finally going to start working on the basement...theres gonna be a bar, a really pretty one. And I already claimed the rest of the big room thats going down there for w.i.l.d. yay im excited!
okay that was gay.
bye
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